Disturbance in the mind.

It's nearly 1 month since I come back to Singapore already. I can say it's a long month, with many things happened. This entry is about 1 of the experience that I want to write about.

I remembered Bernard commented on the post about Happiness that I might not be able to hold my thoughts when I faced the workload at school. To some extend, it did happen in the last month. It is important to note it down, in case I might fall into the same trap again. I should better write the experience down, hopefully to remember it better.

Last week, I realized I didn't keep my mind very clear and positive. I was full of worries, avoided work and felt lost. It was due to the strenuous ACM training, the amount of work I was expected to do this semester. I was kind of freak out. A lots of work will be new to me so I shunned for awhile too. All these thoughts surely didn't do anything good to my mind.


A part of the (source of the) problem comes from other people. I realized that many people spoke bullshit and I unconsciously let their negative voice entered my mind, or let their goal influenced mine. Keeping view of an observant is not easy.


It was an awakening moment, I realized I need to fix my mindsets. Again. Here are the relevant ones:

- I like adventure. I like explore new thing. My life must be a series of adventures. Remember how awesome past experiences were, so that I can overcome the initial fear of facing new things.


- What need to be done must be done properly. Plan early. Execute early. Work by priority, not difficulty. Decide priority by commitment and importance.

- There will be problems arise from the things I commit to do. However, problems are there to challenge my ability and creativity. Instead of shunning, I must keep thinking about problems and solutions. Try and try. It's fine to fail but it's not to fear. So far I'm sure I'm creative and smart.

- Life is about choice. I don't have to do everything, especially don't have to follow what others do or want. I must remember what is my choice and what is not, what is important to me, what I want to do.

- Do not think, pretend or appear to be down. Keep smiling. Hold myself standing high. Keep my mind in check. If I can't hold it, take a break.

- Sometimes it is important to take a break: a meal with friends, an outing, a movie, a nap, go swimming, and esp. a bath. Many things doesn't require lots of time yet can have outstanding restoration effect. Work smart.

- Keep the time spend on Facebook and Yahoo/ MSN in check.